My last journey!: 2012

Friday, July 20, 2012

Happy Birthday Sweets...

"Warm light rain falls, trickled down by tear-drops on my window and I long for you, my unattainable."

The month of July brings back some golden memories of the past….

Going through a nostalgic phase and thinking of an old flame that filled a long period in my life.

I love you with every passing day!

Your absence does not hurt, but a little…

But am happy I have our good memories with that I can cherish all through the rest of my life, that is left for me and sweetheart, a birthday kiss on your eyes as I do it for you every year!!

Perhaps that’s the way I love you more… with every single passing day!!

I have no cakes to cut, no candles to blow, no gifts to present but all I have is my love, an unconditional love that I always share with you and my prayers near God to protect you….

You are missed in every phase of my growing life…

Happy Birthday Sweets...

Kisses,

Your Sonii

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Oh Soul mate,I dream of you...

"The wait is long, my dream of you does not end."

I wish to switch to a place, where there would be only calmness and peace, with solitude and tranquility… far away from the crowd, to the dark woods of the river bank.

Leaving behind the sorrows, letting the sadness go, moving with a mirthful heart and residing on new dreams, to build a new life, that god has to offer me…

And I started to dream of my better half...

"My love, wherever our lives journey, I will always travel with you in my heart."

I wish not for a superman, but a man full of strength!

I wish not for a bed of roses, but a bed full of love!

I wish not for stars and moon, but a little kindness and respect to my love!

I wish not for a rich palace, but a house filled with sweetness and love!

"Are we not like two volumes of one book? " ;)

My better half, someone to hold me closely tight,

Someone to take me into a realm of dreams and rainbows,

Someone to pick me up in my dark times,

Someone to dress me with flowers of love,

Someone to colour the painting of my life,

"If someone would ask me, who I want to be with, I will simply say, someone who will never leave me no matter how hard is to be with me."

My better half who would complete me now and forever,

Someone whose trust would spring back life into me,

Someone who would closely bind our relation to eternity,

Someone who would bring me to lead a meaningful life.

"Because of you, no matter what may come tomorrow, today my life is more complete."

Waiting for that God’s gift to come

...to spend my remaining days with!

If I had to choose whether to breathe or to love you, I would use my last breath to tell you that...
I love you

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Footprints...

"The story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love. It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity." ~Helen Hayes

Sabhi aatein hain,

sabhi chale jaatein hain,

aur unke paareon ke nishaan ish dil pe utar jaate haain…

Kabhi sochte hain, zindagi sei nata hi tod dey,

Kabhi chahte hain sabhi risten tod dey!

Yun kitne arman aur sajayen?

Yun kinte raatein aur asai katen?

Yun kitne sapne aur toden?

Koi aye en gaam ke adhion sei hume le jaye!

Koi aye in aakhon main phir se mithe sapne dey jaye!

Manzil ka toh pata nahi hume, raste kyaa chune?

Shaahil yun dhunte chale, aur yun dhunte chale…

Yunhi chala, chal raahi...Kitni haseen hai ye duniya!! :)

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Step_in soon...

(: "L.I.F.E is short. S.M.I.L.E while you still have teeth." :)

Oh unseen future, please step in soon!

In a bright shining moon, bring my life’s boon!

With a mesmerizing touch, blow the lively winds!

In a bird’s sweet melody, play the love tune!

In a colorful petal, make my life settled!

In the rolling water, be the dazzling stone!

With a musical touch, be the flower bunch!

On a soft creamy feather, take me to a dreamy land!

"There's a time in life where you have to face the fact that you do deserve better and you need to move on."

Tuesday, May 01, 2012

Loved forever....

"What I feel for you seems less of earth and more of a cloudless heaven." - Victor Hugo

I am sure you are here somewhere, inside my heart!

The place is yours that none can take, the heart only beats for you!

I am sure you can hear my soul; it sings the song only for you!

Sometimes, like an angel, you come to me.

Sometimes, like a broad smile, you glow my face.

Sometimes, like the brightest star, you shine in my life.

I am sure you are here somewhere, in my every breath!

I search you in every striking hand of the clock;

There is not a day spent without recalling you!

I am sure your soul can hear my voice, I am sure you are here somewhere!

Seven years of journey has been like seven births that I took with you!

I remember how caring you were, beholding me in your heart…

I remember the golden days spent with you…

I remember the day we first met…

You are always there in my prayers!

To protect you from all the troubles!

" Do you love me because I am beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?"

Falling in love beyond time, beyond words ...and beyond all the truth!

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

13th April 2012, reminded me of a deadly event that happened in my life!!

This is how it began….

1996… in the month of June, a deadly event occurred, a soul drifting occurrence that I had ever faced or experienced before!

It was like an early sunrise, I woke up happily with eagerness in heart and smile on my lips to visit the “Elephanta Island” of Maharashtra!

I was cheerful and jolly!!
I felt like those were the happy moments that I ever wanted to live with… The day was colourful and lively. I was quite small, probably was in my 4th standard, it was our summer vacation visit.

Travelling 10 kms. from the Gateway of India, Mumbai, over the vast heavy sea, we reached the epic “Elephanta caves”.

The beautiful sculptures and carvings demonstrated how the beauty that held from years long, a temple to the Hindu God, Lord Shiva!

The peaceful and serene ambience around soothed me. The day was full of fun and frolic… After having spent almost two and a half hours inside the caves, it was time to move back to the dock.

Our return journey began!

Almost, 40 to 50 passengers were present; it was like a mini boat, which was run by the boat man.

On our return journey, it was a perfectly fine sunny weather. Parents, kids, the old and the youngsters were so much happy for their visit, everyone deep down busy relishing the peace and tranquillity.

But, nobody knew that something black, something dark was just about to happen! Nobody had foreseen the impending ill omens.

There’s a saying that “Omens don’t speak and come”

“Death is an inevitable truth”

Gazing the sea waves, the rippling water, I suddenly made a wish to the sea!
A wish that was ought not to be made….

(People say, children are another form of God, they are most innocent and true from heart.)

But… it was all about to happen!

“Dear, little sea waves, please take me and all of us, inside the water, deep down the sea bed, where Mata Santoshi Maa will be there and we all will visit her.”

(And it turned out as if the words of the little me was heard by the sea … it became a true wish for the sea. And the wish was granted!)

There came a moment that felt like blanked, as if it had stopped and paused. Suddenly huge mass of heavy dark clouds covered the blue sky, and the wind’s speed began to take its violent form, blowing louder and louder.

The waves raised their height, it was with a ghostly appearance!
All of a sudden, the climate changed, everything occurred as if in a second!
There was no time to spell, ‘how?’

There were people screaming and shouting all around, kids were crying, trembling in fear. Parents had lain down on the boat’s floor with their kids, almost having given up the hope to be able to survive again…

The boat was half filled with water by then;
Everyone had just one prayer on their lips –
“Please, God Save Us”

The deadly misfortune continued for over an hour or more, it was hard to find a dock, as we were in the middle of the sea …

It was the day, when I saw death from the closest!!
Just a few moments back, Life was smiling at me and I was teeming with joy. And then now, here I was standing, trembling in fear, and staring at my end! My life was just about to stop, that was going to come true just before my own eyes.. as if it was pre-destined to happen… DEATH!!

I went again for a last wish, to the sea… “I am sorry, please save us”

From the hopeless situation, after a large struggle between life and death, after a long time, the boat man could find a small dock, attached with fifteen more boats. Crossing and jumping each one of them, we finally could reach the end of the dock!!

And finally there was land under my feet! Everyone was saved, rescued from the deadly thunder storms!!

~ It was moreover like a message to me or say an experience, a note or a gift to me from the almighty, to endure the new life!

“Children are so innocent with their wishes that without knowing or having ever anticipated their outcome, they sometimes step into the unforeseen and the unimagined that they had ever asked for! How deadly can it become, when sometimes these wild thoughts of children come true!”

For me, it was a true wish; a desire to see my maa(bhagwanji), being in her arms was my only wish. But who in turn gave me… a new life… one more time… to live this gifted life!

Now, here I accept it and lead with a promise in my heart to serve well to this nature…
To remain a true child, a true devotee of Almighty, forever and ever … and everafter…

“I am not moved by what I see. I am not moved by what I feel. I am moved only by what I believe.”

~ Smith Wigglesworth

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Connected Souls...

At some point of time,
I want to be yours again!

To spread the failed wings and take a deep breath to wake up and fly!

At some point of time,
I want to lay asleep in your lap!
To bring the wildest dream and take you to the other part of the mountain dew!

At some point of time,
I want to be a child and take a ride in the toy train!
To build the dream home and color the walls with our love!

To unfold the lost love with the petals of early lotus!
To dance again in the rhythm that never stops its tune!

To sail my life through the winds of your name!
To continue without being paused!

At some point of time I want to see you once…

To believe the depth of love and being loved!
To complete the incompleteness of my life!

“Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.”

– Henry Van Dyke

Friday, April 20, 2012

An unhopeful wish...

"Even though we are far apart I love you dearly with all my heart."

I wish, it was just a bad dream!

Whatever has happened, I wish none of that had ever happened!

I wish to see you when I open my eyes and could find everything set all right!

I wish to find you sitting beside me and holding my hands!

I wish to spend the remaining days of my life in your arms!

I wish you to make me know that I am safe!

I wish you to promise me that you would never let yourself go away from me!

I wish to dream again and live a happy life!

I wish to have a prayer to have you all my life!

"Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful. "

I know its a wish … which will never come true! :"(

Miss You So Much...

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected."

In the middle of the night,

I wake up every time.

And land on the dreamland,

and wish to have a magic wand!

Your absence shows my life's emptiness.

I try not to close my eyes, not to shut my heart!

"I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you."

Thereafter, your glowing face appears in front of me!

Your blinking eyes, your lovely smile,

your tender touch, your hands holding mine...

like an endless flowing river, it merges into my old broken memories!

I wish I could show how much I Miss You :'(

Friday, April 13, 2012

Memories...

“The heart that truly loves never forgets.”

I stood near the broken window;

And saw through the rough glass.

With the rain droplets, I felt my love for you went in vain!

I gazed at the broken path, and felt the loneliness,

that the road is built but nobody walks on it.

With the cool breeze, your memories freeze!

Like a sunken rock, the charm that has fade, like the leaf that falls in the autumn…

Like a rusted iron, as if my soul is junked!!

Alas!

And then... there a drop of rain fell on my palm; my note was about to be left incomplete.

I turned and found that, there was life again, the hope of the flower that blooms in spring, the sun that rises in the east… the moon that is so pure, the touch that removes all the grief!!

The ray of hope promised me to come again!!

“We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams.”

Sunday, April 01, 2012

A Sweet Angel ... "my granny,aai"

"You are the light of my world. Shine, and darkness disappears"

The day when I opened my eyes,

when I was brought onto this Earth and was gifted to my parents,

with my first breath, with my first thought…

Perhaps, that day was the most joyful day for my granny!!

She was divine, a fairy tale and shall always remain a very sweet unforgettable memory… More than a mother, she stood beside me, always;

she held my hands and taught me thousands of things…

She made me learn how beautiful this world is…!!

She kept me strong to put unbreakable faith on God…!!

She handed enumerable reasons, to be a true devotee, her words,

her endless and constant knowledge taught me to be loyal, kind and truthful to all…

More than an angel, she was to me… her soothing smile freed all my pains and hurts!!

With her breezing touch, her warmth of love made me secure and safe from the rough world…

Like, I was a tree and she formed the deepest root…

Like, I was a bird and she made the wings to fly…

Like, I was a blind and she was the brightest vision of mine…

My granny is no more with me now, she passed away with the circle of life, she moved to the other part of truth ~ “death/heaven/rebirth”

24th December 2011,

The last day when I could see her,

with tears in my eyes, pain in heart,

I surrendered her to God…

Three months from the day, now she still comes in my dream, like day and night; she kisses me, hugs me, cares for me and teaches me... Still, to move on!!

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Intezaar...

"It's the simple things in life that are the most extraordinary"

How on Earth, can anyone stay far from sin...? And far from mistake...?

How on Earth, could life be easily predictable...?

How on Earth, could future be easily seen...? How?

Then, why do we regret?

Why does human guilt kill one all through his life?

Yes, I'm also a nature-occurred girl, a human instance with human characteristics.

Very true that with certain unknown mistakes and guilts, I crossed a few stages of my life,

Just because I'm still a human to Earth!!

But... Somethings are inevitable, eternal, longed forever... true to the core... my love!!

How on Earth could I say sorry to really make you know that the love wasn't fake?

How on Earth could I really spell how true the meaning I did impart?

Why now is it so difficult, brutal with hard luck to let you know, the endless thoughts? How?

The early morning and calm night, the passing every now and then, the inhaling breaths, all were blessed equally with the truth, with the risen sun, the sound of the temple bells...

With the blind walk, the move towards life, has become so rough, as if lifeless and hopeless...

How on Earth, can it be possible to dream again?

How on Earth, can it be easy to rebuild the broken dreams?

How on Earth, can it be done with ease? How?

With no worries, no demand, I stand still ... I endure the truth ... I swallow the present!!

Walking, Smiling and leading smoothly here I step... to the unseen future... to let you know, that you were the best thing that ever happened to me!!

"No one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is true experience of love: having the most important thing in the world without owning it."

With Love,

Sonii

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Love needs no reason...

"Little Me"

"Little You"

"Our plastic town with wheels in it..."

Little me and little you,

with our little little shoe,

we jumped together, played with the plastic towns,

with wheels in it, we made our little home... !!

Little me and little you,

with our little little wishes,

we dreamt together,

with the passing time we grew older...!!

Little me and little you,

were made for each other,

we stayed together,

walked forever...!!

Little me and little you,

nearer to the destination,

we landed together,

with happiness...!!

Little me and little you,

How then did we get mislaid from each other??

How did we get separated from each other??

Why did you depart, leaving me behind, all alone??

"This plastic town will always remain incomplete without you"

Little me and little you... with our little little memories, I remain forever!!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

In Search...

Some stories, some chapters begin with no start,that has no definite end.
Things are destined and sometimes,we have no control over them or power to over rule!!

On this day, people wish and convey their love to their loved ones, their love towards each other, as it’s a day of 'Saint Valentine', and Valentine signifies being worthy, strong, loyal, kind and lovable... It describes all the LOVE … and adds the reason to LIFE.

So, here I dedicate a note to my deceased granny (aai), to my core love, to my family and to every one … both near and far, to all those who always remain present in my heart!!

“Love is a tune, which sweetens your days…!!
Love is an act, which everyone plays…!!
Love is a flower, which blossoms everyday…!!
And,Love is when you fall apart; but still stays close… together to heart!!”

It's good to love and being loved, and sometimes waiting for the loved one holds much more meaning towards it… Love begins, grows deep, and teaches many a things!! Sometimes it hurts, and sometimes even bleeds…

But Love shows the essence,
It adds true meaning to survival and at times, even gives a reason to die!

Love has no ending, it continues on and on till the very last day,
Being together is love, but being apart and falling hard for love is even more beautiful.

Love has no form... Like the eternal truth, it has no start and no end,
Love is all that you can do -- you can give, and you can share.

The holy divine says that this is the nature, the rule that every soul keeps passing by,
Life, death and rebirth -- the circle of life…
One body dies and the soul takes another body as its home. The soul keeps migrating, it has no feeling, no sense, and no grounds to see or judge … Mythology says that it's only the mind that drives one that pushes the life on …
The way your mind steers and turns, the way it leads, so is the way you move…

Relations, feelings, togetherness and bonding remain in only one birth, but the cycle continues … what you come with … and what you take… is pre-defined!

But oh Dear Lord, Can this world exist without love? Does it?
If a holy soul takes the karma with him after the death, is his love left behind? Does his love remain buried? Does he keep far away from his love?

Can I ever get answers to my undefined questions?
Oh, Lord… Do I need to wait to find my answers?
Or… Do I need to create my own?

“Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.” ~ Washington Irving.

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

Love, that lasts forever!

"If I know what love is, it is because of you."

Someday when I grow old,
I will sit alone on my lonely chair,
And cherish the moments that we had spent together...

"Two souls with but a single thought, two hearts that beat as one!"

With the wrinkled face,

the skin must have turned dull,

it may seem gloomy,

No matter, eyes will carry the same glow of our love… capturing you in it, every time it

blinks, when my heart sinks...

"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven!"

Someday when I grow old,

I will sit with my grand children, and pass on the love story of ours,
which will make them learn how things remain together
beyond all the words...

Someday when I grow old,
My slippery tongue will spell your charismatic name;
it might not reach you again but will
convey the essence of our love...

"If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever..."

Someday when I grow old,

Taking my last few breaths, you will be missed and wished to be with...

Someday when I grow old,

Do love me a little, before I end the life...!!

Life is beautiful... :) Keep Smiling!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Something... that was more than Love!

TIME,the only thing that keeps moving…

People say, as it written in the holy Vedas, the Puranas, the Bhagavad Gita… that when one dies and leaves the organic body - the flesh- the one “Soul” only takes the Paap and Punya to the heaven, as the rest is left behind here… that it is to be judged consequently by the Almighty! And on the basis of the judgement he/she gets a rebirth or remains as a free living soul near God.

Someday, it was a winter afternoon,

I sat down on my bed, sometime lay asleep with eyes open…lost again in the world of memories and wild thoughts… with the music play:

“Meri adhoori kahani,
lo dastan ban gayi…
Zindagi ne
Pehni hai
Muskan
Karne lagi hai
Itna.. karam
Kyun na jaane
Karvat lene lage hain
Armaan phir bhi
Hai aankh num
Kyun na jaane
O saiyan…..”

Mmm… what did I carry??

The whispering tone of his voice, the tender touch, the warmth of his love that I saw every time through his eyes, brought tears in my eyes… there I asked myself, what Punya, did I do??Till now…!!

How much effective and helpful am I to this world??

Had I ever brought happiness to anyone’s life? Lots of question cropped up!!

Silence, darkness, tears, pain covered me like the dark dull clouds spreading all over the sky, I kept thinking on and on…

After a while, there came a voice from the holy soul… Soul of God, answered me…

“Keep safe… Your love, My Child”

Irrespective of the surviving time…

“Hold on and walk on… bring that love with you, while yours is the last journey to this Earth”

I was silent, tears rolling… I smiled to myself, confused and lost whether it was of happiness that our love is accepted, or it was the pain that reflected, the loss of losing him!

Looking to the Lord, I promised myself to carry “Our Love” till the ever last … So that, someday or another, in the other world, I could stand brave in front of God and could relegate our Love on His holy feet…

Just like a Mother carrying her baby in the stormy night, till the dawn breaks!

My last journey!

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